I, ME, MINE MYSELF...

Will You Forgive me...?

2010-03-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

Dear Syg,

Since the day we've been together, I've grown so deeply in love with you. Day by day, my love for you becomes so overwhelming till I can't handle it when I don't see or talk to you for even one day! You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just can't carry on. You make me smile and laugh a lot and I truly treasure that.

I apologize straight from the heart for ignoring and being rude to you whenever you make an attempt to make me feel better when we're done quarreling. You are a very patient man, and I thank you for that. I don't ever want to take advantage of your patience, not ever. I know I over react a lot, and I'm sorry.

You are the most wonderful thing that has EVER happened to me. I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as yours before. But now that we've found each other, I've changed my mind. You are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to get married to, the person I want to have kids with, and the person whom I want to grow old with. syg, you complete me. You make my life so brilliant and I don't know how else to repay you but to love, care and support you more and more. You're the star in my sky - the one and only star. You make me feel beautiful, very beautiful. Thank you for giving me your all.

I can never imagine how it would be like if we were to lose each other. I don't even want to think of it, syg. All I want to think of is you. You are the love of my life. From the bottom of my heart, I love you.

Loving you always,

Babey.

The FACT...

2010-03-16T23:58:00.000-07:00

1. When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

2. When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.

3. When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.

4. When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

5. When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

6. When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.

7. When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

8. When she ignores you, give her your attention.

9. When she pulls away, pull her back.

10. When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.

11. When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.

12. When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

13. When she’s scared, protect her.

14. When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

15. When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

16. When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

17. When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

18. When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

19. When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

20. When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

21. When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

22. When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

23. When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

24. Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

25. Don’t let her have the last word.

26. Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

27. Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

28. Argue that she is the best girl ever.

29. When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.

30. When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to
her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.

31. Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

32. Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

33. Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.

34. Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.

35. Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.

36. Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

37. Let her into your world.

38. Let her wear your clothes.

39. When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

40. Let her know she’s important.

41. Kiss her in the pouring rain.

D story of My Love. My life~~~

2010-03-16T00:08:00.000-07:00

well, ive been keep quite 4 long tym.. so im back 2 write smeting n put my words here in my blog...

nw~~~
my life dat im living nw, emmm... wat more i can say... Full of Love dat i never expecting before... im s0o0 super duper happy2!! XD
Im going thru alot.. Sadness.. Confusing... Lost my way for a while...but, he never leave my side.. Owes b there 4 me no matter wat.. Giving me support n show me my way back 2 being myself again... I appreciate it so much.. REally.

Thank U~~~

Thankyou for being you
Thankyou for showing me more then i knew.
Thankyou for making songs about me
Thankyou for helping me to see
All that this life can be.
Thankyou for being you
Thankyou for making me want to say i do.
Thankyou for giving me everything
I have everything...
And everything is YOU.

<3

Two Is Better Than One>> Dedicated 2 u syg <3

2009-12-03T21:46:00.000-08:00

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
Cause everything you do
And words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And I am left with nothing

So maybe its true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
Cause when i close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

Then maybe its true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And i thought hey

Maybe it's true
That I cant live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
That I cant live without you
Cause maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I've figured out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one.

ITS HAPPENING..

2009-11-29T23:21:00.001-08:00

yes~~ dis is new 4 me, n it is d most important storyline of my life... d old me is now vanishing.. d old of myself who is think bout LOVE is really sucks+fake+ n etc, now so into it.. feeling my heart nw is singing~~ getting 2 know him mek me so happy.. he mek me smile evryday.. he freshening my m0rning, tuck in my slip n 0wes b beside me no matter wat... he's making my life worth.. n its all bcause his LOVE...

THANK YOU syg...

im hoping dat dis relationship will last forever... couldn't imagine my life without u since u r my everyting..

Your love changed my life
and I couldn't thank you more
you gave me hopes & dreams
and opened my heart's door.

When I lost my directions
your love showed me my way
for this I say a silent prayer
each and everyday.

Still some nights may find me
sad ,lonely and cold
but when my heart reaches for you
yours is there to hold.

You're the music in my heart
the melody in my step
your love was the hand
that dried the tears I wept.

p/s: I LOVE YOU~

long tym no c~~~

2009-11-29T23:18:00.000-08:00

fuh..
its been so long~~~~ i din update my blog here... lots happen i my life 4 sure, n n0w let begin..

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im going to go on.

2009-05-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

^^
do i have any choice other than dat? huhu.. well, i must go on wit wat i have now. with my frens, n family. i will b strong more than i can b. i must. it is not easy, but i must get in thru it.
>> i wan to find myself
>> i wan to give him forgiveness
>> no regret
>> no dendam
>> im seeking my own happines

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i will b strong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

worth my pain~

2009-05-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

today is the day, im awake from my dreams.
it is realy sad.. im feeling so down. i feel so empty. three years, n its end just like dat.
did i make any mistake somewhere?
fly free from nw on my dear. dats wat u wan, dats wat u choose. hmmm, i use to love u more than myself, i used to sacrifice many things. i wan to b wit u. its so long time n too many memories to 4get. its gonna b tough 4 me. i hope u will hapy wit ur decision.

im ok. im alright.

kolej bzing huh???

2009-05-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

so,
dis sem will b short sem, just had start class in two weeks. but walawe.... manyak karaja wor... haha.. dis sem will b oni 2 month.. well, wat ia wan try to do is:
- nda ble ponteng walau apa pon
- owes bgun awal (which is so susa 4 me)
- fin all assignment dgan puas hati n no last minute work ha!!!
- hpefuly i wil diciplne myself well!!!
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i love my college life!! XOXOXO

my future will be better than my past >>

2009-05-12T06:34:00.000-07:00

dats wat my life will b for sure...
hopefuly it will.. nw all i have to do is go on.. i dun need d past.. i dun wan d history.. im being d person dat i wan to b.. i know im not perfect n will not b, but at least i do wan i wan, im hapy wit dat.. haha.. people might not to know me well or myb hate me of wat i am.. but hey! it is me..
love me or hate me babe!!!

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Try n Try...

2009-05-07T21:42:00.000-07:00

I have always seen life for what it really is.
Ever since I was a child growing up, hard times are all I know.

I had to sit back and watch my mother work from sunset to sundown.
I had to sit back and watch my mother work herself to her grave.

Nothing ever came easy for her.
She always had a heart and kept a smile on her face.

Life is like a newborn baby struggling to come out of its mother's womb,
life is a struggle true enough, but after all the struggling you have done,

and after all the hell you have been through, there is success.
Life is nothing but a big struggle, but just keep the faith and focus on your goals.

Don't let life beat you or you will be walking around like zombies.
Keep on pushing, keep on trying, life can be whatever you make it to be.

But life can also be a bowl of cherries with whip cream and apple pie.
I say this again; life is what you make of it.

You can achieve or conquer anything it throws at you,
you can't quit or give up, you have got to keep on working,

look higher some way, some how you are going to make it.

masiswa 2009

2009-05-05T21:43:00.000-07:00

go go go mmc!!!
well, i participate in netball.. n we got d 4th place..
ok la dat kan.. at least ada smangat jgak brsukan.. hehe..
i enjoy it much.. cos i am suka sukan2 ni... mengkali la...
haha...
then, here d pic yg we had snap time d sukan...
credits to all d photographer!!

dcs batch 4 06

2009-05-05T21:29:00.000-07:00

we had reunion 4 our batch last month...
its a great time to spent wit..
makan2 sket..
gamber2 sket...
fun...
here some pic of us..
which is i b d main character..
haha...

just fin--->

2009-04-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

so0o00o0o0,
so long din update my blog^^
being a lil bz wit many actvties.. n now all had fin.. so having fun.. yea~
got masiswa.. so make me tired, but hey its worth! n now im going back to college, cuti da habes wo0i~~!!
in next week will b bz again... start life lg.. well, dats my life are..
well,
i have my to do list oso for this month n s0 0n...

oh yeah!!
its all about...
M O N E Y ! ! !

N, LATER...

2009-03-27T07:47:00.000-07:00

strong^^

2009-03-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

so long din write huh?
yea.. a lil bz of lot things... just fin my exam today.. hope all will b ok.. no worries..
>> h a k u n a m a t a t a<<
fuh...
so relieve le... so now ive decided dat i wan to do smeting big.. ive been thinking so long.. all the way to kk..hehe.. well its truth, like my foot din touch earth anymore... im going so deep wit my thought,
deeper than sea, higher than mountain.. hehe, hmmmm.... i will make my move, just let d time show it.. im waiting 4 it also...

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so0o0, now im getting matured i tot.. im learning smeting new now.. its really makes me realize wat life realy are, start 4rom a tears.. n now i can stand on my own feet wit a big smile of mine..
no tears anymore.. i promise myself.. let go d past, i dun wan it anymore.. 4 sure.. yea~~

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act,
im so tired of myself now..^^
im d one who hurt yesterday will not turn my head back now.. im gonna change now..
i will!!
buang yg keruh, ambil yg jernih..
im going to smile now!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-02T18:49:00.000-08:00

cnt describe wat ive been thru lately.. thrs so much things.. sme of it dat i cant accept at all.. dey is no forgiveness 4 u anymore.. duna y, n how but dats wat i am.. its so hard yeAA... plus being talk2 like dat?? huh... unacceptable.. sOOOOO... but i still dun care wat will happen.. cos i still wan to do wan i wan to.. just PLEASE dun judge me.. its my own life.. u dun have right.. u r nobody..
BTW,
its me how i am.. hmmm... all people make mistake.. its true.. just dun the same mistake repeatly.. dats stupidity... n just from now on, i will make all d past things as my history in my life.. no regret.. thres no use.. its edi hapen.. just put it in mind properly...
WEll,
my life is so so so so so complicated.. yeAAA.. dats wats life r kan.. then ill face it...
Wit pleasure...

Live ur Life!!

2009-02-26T16:45:00.000-08:00

Life is just the same
Some people
just say
When it comes a day
To hold on
Life yet is just the same
When I even called your name
Some days won't change
Life's just the same
It never changes
But it does
It does change
Sometimes
Life just to breathe in and out
Life is hard
Life is simple
Life is everything
Life is just the same
Some people just say
About life
They complain
Everything about life

Life is just the same..

It may take years to find the place
Where love, peace and joy abide.
It is the place that calms your fears.
And, there strength resides.

Storms still come and rain do fall,
But, faith will get you through.
For in this place, you will recall
The hope that you once knew.

A place of love and passion too-
What more could one want?
Many have search, but few have found
A place of happiness...

L I F E <---

2009-02-26T16:15:00.000-08:00

Wonder how bad can be life is??
Past dis time, I've been thru so much things.. sad n hapy.. hmm.... life isn't easy, now i understand wat dat word is... smeting we wan to do.. n yet we cant.. even it can make all hapy... y?? still no answer.. but nvm, life must go on no matter wat it is.. kecuali kiamat le.. haha... 4 me, i won wait 4 smeting yg blum pasti.. so hate waiting.. just wanna live on wit I, ME, MINE, MYSELF.. cos i know, many things outdey yg i nver xplore.. myb smting is waiting 4 me... hw shud i know kn?? Life is owes fair.. evry person will hve their own story.. jatuh n bangun.. fair enuf, to feel wat hapy is n wat hurt is.. evry1 does.. so then, dats how im thinking.. i dun wan to cry again.. i dun wan 2 b sad all the time.. im seeking 4 a happinss.. i must b strong no matter wat it is.. i dun hve any choice, n i dun wan other choice than dat.. hope all dat ive been thru will make me appreciatte life more..
im glad 4 having it.... n 4 now i wiil pleasure evry breath i take.. n i know 1 day my story will have happy ending...
-E N D-
-H O P I N G-

2009-02-22T04:47:00.000-08:00

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of[humankind.

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of people.
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life, I found it worth living.

L O V E

2009-02-18T00:20:00.000-08:00

Last night I met you in my dream Kissed you like crazy it seemed Completely away from reality I found forever in your arms It hurts to be so ambitious When you have to step aside We made a promise long ago I swear I never gave up Eternity could be ours I owe my life to you I have been feeling so empty Since you packed your bags And waved your goodbye I was not worth any words You could not lie that time Tell me it was not me Tell me it was all on you You cant, you will choke.

Written on a broken heart --

the kinda sh_t i put up wit is somehow so amazing .

the way i keep my comments to myself .
the way i never speak my mind .
the way i keep a smile on my face .
the way i love you regardless of everything .
the way i stay true to you, even though i know you doin me dirty .
the way i can't stand to see you hurt .
the way i put my problems to the side for you .
the way i feel for you period .
the way i would stop the world for you .
the way i would kill anybody that tries anything to hurt you .
the way i try my best to keep you satisfied .
but then i ask myself, "why you going through this if you can do much better "
i reply to myself, "can you really ... ?" .

the way i'm feelin for you now is a feeling that i havent felt in a very long time .

i havent had anyone - -
that i can honestly say that i love wit all my heart .
that i can talk to about anything .
that i can see myself with .
that i can at least hope they love me back as much as i do them .
that i can think about all day .
that i can care about their feelings .
that i can say that i've cried for .
that i would want to change my lifestyle for .

i don't know if you see that though .

why would you settle for less - -
somebody that dont give a f_ck about you .
somebody that loves someone else .
somebody that doesnt even love you half as much as i do .
somebody who says im better for you .

i ain't finna put it all on you . i know i f_cked up . i cheated . everyone makes mistakes .

i want to be with you, but the question is --

do you want to be with me ?
do you love me as equally as i do ?
do you feel the same way i do ?
do you need me like i need you ?

but do you honestly think that i deserve being lied to ? .

One person's gain is one person's loss someone's reward is somebody's cost Give and take take and give always forget always forgive But that person's treasure was NEVER my trash you stole him from me and now my heart's ash Give and take take and give have to forget have to forgive He couldn't be found if he never was lost don't tell me get over it you are NOT my boss Give and take take and give try to forget try to forgive You can not take him when he alone is mine Our love not your's is part of the grand design Give and take take and give never forget never forgive I now stand alone sense you stole him from me guess he didn't love me back perhaps I'm finally free Give and take take and give can I forget can I forgive

Life must go on.

2008-11-28T10:00:00.001-08:00

A new beginning; a lifetime opportunity. Her life has taken a turn for the better. She is beside herself, but never lonely. Things she took for granted are now treated with great care; experiencing a life she neglected before. Her days are filled with laughter and never-ending smiles; how she could have pushed this aside before is still unknown. Friends and family are her greatest possessions. Her overwhelming gratitude for them is shown through her care. Instead of being lost and confused, she is now more understanding. Learning from her past, she offers consoling words to comfort her own friends, which becomes her natural ability. A girl once broken is now breaking free. She is content with how life is, learning from what was lost, and remembering to move forward. Understanding she didn't do everything right, she admits she was wrong. She was wrong so many times; deeply sorry to those she affected. But life is different now, and she can't change a thing. Moving forward, she faintly remembers the past with a smile...

1st time..

2008-09-24T23:13:00.000-07:00

ok, 1st of all.. FYI this is my first time using blog or watever such a blog, i mean all things dat need to cakap panjang2 like dis. dulu actually im not interested, but i duno y now i suddenly i minat n would like to kongsi all my stories here, my b others can give me opinion or suggestion in anything dat im doing in my life kan. or may b 1 day i have problem at least i can luahkan here kan, sure it will make me relieve..4 all my fwens, hope they will know me better wit this.. ok~